Oh man oh man!!! I haven't blogged here for about 3 years yeah? My goodness... HAHAHA... What a different person I am now. Quite embarrassed at what I wrote that time.. Please don't read it. It's so errr... Immature and secondary school. HAHAHA.. BUT ANYWAY, PRAISE GOD. :) I'd really like to post some of my entries from my other blog here but I'm a bit lazy to search for them and I don't want too many people reading my current blog. Quite personal. :P BUT ANYWAY, I'm just SOOOOOOOO glad that I've changed so much from there, matured so much more, grown in Christ more and my eyes are now open to the wonders of Him and the blessings I have in Christ! Thank God for opening my heart, for bringing me the person who helped me to do that by bringing me to NCC and for a new experience with Him in Melbourne. It's been nearly 3 years since I've stepped into Melbourne... Many things have been learnt. Still a few more years to go with the Masters and the rest of my degree... -sigh- Wish I was home sometimes but this is where God put me and I will use it to the fullest! :D

I'm probably still gonna keep my fotopages so go there if you're someone who I don't know and is curious about me. :P

Well... Maybe I'll blog here in another 3 years' time. HAHAHA...

Love the song that I'm listening to now.. ;) From the new Hillsong United album called United We Stand. :)

You stood before creation
Eternity in Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
and carried the cross for my shame
My sin weigned upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

Chorus:
So what could I say?
And what could I do?
But offer this heart, oh God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

Chorus

Bridge:
I'll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I'll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Hey! Take note that I'm changing my blog to leedlebug.diaryland.com. Hee! I'm a fickle person and I'M PROUD OF IT! WAHAHAHA! :P Lala...

Can't stay. Just wanted to say VJ SOCCER GUYS ROCK! Wahaha... WE ARE THE CHAMPS ONCE AGAIN! WOOHOO! :P Will let you know more about it another time. Gotta do work. It's kinda late. Got back from the match at 1900+ h. Tired also. I better get more rest. Been sleeping quite late coz I've been online a lot. :P Hope there's half day or full day tmr or Fri! Praying very hard for it. School is really damn draggy... :(

Bad news is I didn't do as well as I expected for Chem. Pretty disappointed. Actually, VERY disappointed. -sigh- Only got a 53%. Thought I would get a 60+%. Oh well... What can I do? Got the marks today only. The paper will be returned to us tmr. :(

Okies, got to go. Shall update over the weekend or Fri. Take care! :)

I'm really super fickle-minded man... I want to change to diaryland! :P Saw Laine's blog and the site she went to get her designs from. How do you manage to find such nice ones man? Really like the Save The Last Dance, elaine's, Crazy/Beautiful and the butterfly ones! Shit. How? Err... Heh... Then I'll have 4 blogs! 2 would not be touched anymore, 1 will be regularly updated and the other 1 is my homepage. Haven't really touched that one either :P How?! Die... But it's really pretty... Didn't know diaryland has such nice layouts! -sigh- Lalala... :) Any advice from anyone???? Hee! Thanks...

Heya! Just got back from a chat at Coffee Bean with Shaun. Talked about church matters. Found out about some stuff and I'm pretty shocked. Like wow man... Oh well... I can't say anything about it so... -zips mouth- :P Anyway, he wanted me to think about how am I going to tell the younger ones and Joy about me leaving, how to get the band to function without me, whether I really want to leave and err... I forgot. Haha. Oops. There's only 1 more point left. Probably remember it later. Can't think of it now. Gonna have tuition soon also so can't take too long to write this.

Mum isn't having dinner today. One of the few times she isn't having dinner at home. Shucks. Should've gone out. Haha. No lah. Got tuition in a while anyway. Will be coming home late tmr also. Got soccer match and I'm going down to support! It's the finals! Against JJC. Hope we win then we'll have half day! There's half day on Friday coz of staff lunch. That means no Physics remedial!! Woohoo! :) But I've Physics tuition at night! Shitz. :P

Anyway, Alex seems to be having problems with Nat Huang. She's supposedly the prettiest in my school. Some SCGS girl who has a twin in RJ too. Faye, Rachel Huang's sis. My classmate is after her but she rejected him a million times. He likes her a lot lah. Oh well... I don't know. He was really miserable today. It was one of the few times he went to study in the library and she had to be there also. He sat facing the wall so that he could do his work but he couldn't concentrate much also. She's avoiding him apparently. I saw him looking at him a few times though. -sigh- Love lorn people.

Sean's also having problems with Rach again. Poor thing. It'll be the 4th time breaking up if they do break up. -sigh- He was talking to Nik about it last night over hp but didn't talk long coz it was late and reception was bad so he met her during her Physics free to talk. He passed to her a keychain. Rach has the other one. Some couple keychain lah. He didn't want to keep it for the time being. Sucks huh? He said he feels the breakup coming. When he didn't have her, he felt terrible but when he has her, he feels terrible too. -sigh- Crap lah. Maybe it's better that they aren't together but then again, the fact that they broke up and go together so many times means quite a lot right? She's also quite a flirt. She two-timed him once but he still got back with her. Haiyoh... If I were him, that's it man. No chance like Mark. :P

Nik also another one. Mark irritated her last night by being all possessive and stuff. When she was telling him about her friends [all guys] were coming back from overseas or getting a new car and wanting to send her home, he was saying that she would probably not have time for him anymore. He said it so many times that she got pissed. Ha... Guys these days... :P

Oh yah! Talking about Sean talking to Nik during Physics lect, I ponned lect today. Alex and Peanut also. :P Attendance was taken again. Wah rau... Xiuhui msged me telling me that we've to hand up a tutorial that the lecturer was going thru. It was already 20 min from the start of the lect. A bit early ah? You know Peanut, Alex and I stood outside LT1 like stupid fools wondering if we should go in. Bobbs appeared and went in. Haha. He went in but we didn't. Felt like stupid idiots ok. We walked back into the library. Think Zeming [WC's friend] was quite amused. He knows who I am coz he came for 1 of our trainings to wait for WC. He kept looking at me running in and out of library. Msged Bobbs to tell him to pass us part of the answers so that we can at least hand up the work. Haha. Didn't complete the last qn though. Wonder if Mr Lee will say anything. Oh well... At least most of the tutorial was done. Heh. That's it man. I've to go for all the lects now. I don't want to skip Math and Chem lects and Physics lect kena forced to go. Wah... Darn... Sometimes just don't feel like going coz they don't even help! :( Anyway, I left after the lect. Came back to slack until Shaun called. That's all for today. Take care! See ya around! :)

"And Christ gave gifts to people - He made some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to go and tell the Good News... Christ gave those gifts to... Make the body for Christ stronger." - Ephesians 4:11-12

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You are Electronica! Living a life as active and colorful as the strobe lights of the dance floor, you are electronica. Your life is a party, or at least that's how you'd like it to be. Your main themes are energy, excitement, and playfulness. You figure: life is short. You only get one shot at it, so why waste it being miserable? You're mostly concerned with immediate pleasure and are very outgoing. Even when you're sad you seem to find a reason to smile. To many this trait is very pleasant, but to those inclined to bitterness it can seem obnoxious and annoying.

Take the what music genre are you quiz by PsychosisX!

Hello! :) GP was first period. Kena scolded by Mrs Sultan for telling her wrong stuff about marks allocation. She was angry with Vagen lah. He wasn't listening. Talking to Yiwei instead. Mrs Sultan got pissed and was asking what did he get for the last common test. Then she asked about marks allocation for the free response. The way she phrased it sounded like she wanted to know if we knew the breakdown of marks for the whole paper. Nearly everyone got the wrong idea but no one except me said it out. Coz Mrs Sultan asked if we knew what a C is and I said 50-60% then she said I'm not listening in class then told me that she was referring to the free response. I stupidly said 2-3 when actually it's 0-3. She got angry again. -sigh- Damn flop. Couldn't remember lah. Normally I can remember such stuff. After that she felt bad I think coz she used me as an example to talk about smth. It turned out to be a joke coz Alex said smth. Not gonna mention what he said. It's veyr mean! Hmph! Nothing from Alex's mouth is good. Haha. No lah. He's nice. Was just playing a fool. Gotta liven up the class man. :) Think Mrs Sultan could tell that I was quite upset she scolded me. But then again, I tried to shrug it off. It's nothing big what right? :) She was also joking when Alex made that stupid comment. Lalala... Anything lah.. :) After GP was Chem lect. Damn bored. Was doing Math tutorial inside. Haha. Whoops! :P The rest of the day was tutorial.

During Physics, Mr Lee gave us this super tough AC currents assignment. Still don't know how to do it. :( He also called out the names of people who he thought copied from each other. Vagen and Val had similar answers but he only questioned Val. Really biased man. Just coz she talks more doesn't mean that she doesn't know her work right? She said that she didn't copy from Vagen at least so must be the other way around right? That pig refused to admit it. -shrugs-

During Chem, Ms Lee was telling us that we would be getting back our Chem test on Thur. -scared- I'm hoping to get a 60+ but I don't want to set too high expectations coz I don't want to be disappointed. It's really demoralising. Very saddening too. -sigh- Really hoping to do well... Or at least to do better than a 50+%. Sucks lah. I want to do well for Chem. Aiming for A for both Math and Chem now. B for both GP and Physics. But first I've got to study SAT. Kena posted to CJ! Of all places! :( Put AC first but full house. -sigh- Oh well... Gonna take it with Pri. Msged her to ask her if she wanted to go out with the rest of the GBers after that but she didn't reply. Grr... Stupid girl! Shall ask the rest. GBers, if you read this, please let me know if you're free on 1st of June. Go out???? :)

Went to Suntec before PT coz Val wanted to shop and Yanlong wanted to get his hat for band concert. He left after buying the hat coz he had chinese after 2 periods. Poor thing. Val took damn long to choose a pair of shoes. Wanted to kill her. Gave her my opinion but she was so irritating. I was just standing there like a total idiot waiting for her. -sigh- Oh well... Anything lah. Didn't really buy anything. Only bought lunch and biscuit to bring home. Skyflakes,the Kiddo biscuit that Faye always eat but without the cream. My maid always buys a tin home and my sis and I finish it up all the time. Haha. Felt bad lah. Since I saw it there, I bought it for her. Nik joined us for 15 mins. Haha. She took 196 down to Suntec so that she could take a bus back home. She missed 1 36 and 2 16s at a go. Haha. Damn suay man. Went back to school with Val.

Oh... I'm gonna repeat what I wrote up there... Floor ball and badminton rocks! :) Heh! Played it just now. Badminton with hockey people, namely Eunyce, Val, Hanan, Zhiwei and Daphne. Salene and Thanda joined us when we were going to stop playing. Wanted to play floor ball against the guy swimmers lah. Bobbs joined in in the middle. We lost terribly. Wah... Damn terok. So sia suay for the hockey girls. Met Cheryl [hockey player also] after I stopped playing and told her we were playing floor ball and that we lost. She was quite shocked. Haha. Oh well... Hockey IS quite different from floor ball. Played till about 1830 h then rested for awhile till nearly 1900 h and left. Was quite happy 36 came quite fast today. Needed to air-con! :P Sat right at the back. Good! More leg space. Needed to stretch. Heh. Got back, had dinner, watched TV. Lied down on my bed when I came up. Fell asleep! Haha! That part of my bed is dirty already. Imagine someone super smelly and dirty lying on the edge of a clean bed. -bleah- Haha. Oh well... I was tired lah. Was msging Sean and April while sleeping. Kept waking up when they replied. Took quite long to msg back. Haha. Sorry lah. Was really tired. Needed a short nap lah.

Sean msged me while I was having dinner saying "Hey left so fast. Haizz... Thought I have company back :P" I msged back asking him why didn't he leave with me and that he should've told me that he was going home after that. I didn't know if he was going out with Rachel or not. I wonder if they're still together actually. Ah anyway, I was saying we were msging right? Yeah, was talking rubbish about just now's game and blaming each other for not telling each other that we were going home by bus. But then again, I doubt I could stay so late. He left at about 1930 h. A bit late lah. Think mum would probably kill me. Don't know. But I haven't even touched any work ever since I got back so maybe she wouldn't have killed me. Haha. Oh well... Whatever lah. :P

Was supposed to have PT but Cheryl and Jean are sick. Peanut didn't want to strain herself before her napfa tmr and Nik had a super big bruise from sailing so she refused to go for PT. Wah... Excuses only can. Talking about Nik lah. Only a bruise what. It's quite big actually but it's not very serious. Thanda crashed into her on Sat. Poor thing.

Oh yah! Did I tell you about Senior Dinner and Dance(SDD)? It's on the 4th of Dec at Ritz! Woohoo! Can't wait! :P But first need to lose weight... Haha... Quite determined this time. Val is also dieting. Hope I continue to persevere. Quite successful yesterday and today. :P Think my class is forming a few tables.

Okies, gotta Zzz... Tired... -yawnz- Goodnight yeah? Take care and see ya all around! :)

P/S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FAYEEE! -muaks- :)

"Love each other like brothers and sisters. Give each other more honor than you want for yourselves" - Romans 12:10


which Episode II character are you?
Anakin Skywalker - jedi apprentice. Like Anakin, you know your morals and usually always stick to the rules. However, stray away from those who know best and you may become naive to what anybody tells you. Stay with those whom you trust and have always been your friends. Otherwise, you may find yourself being manipulated by outside parties.

I'm still waiting for people to watch the show with me!! I wanna watch but tickets are sold out like EVERYWHERE! :(

I removed the entry I typed just now coz it's still incomplete. HAha. Lazy to continue typing lah. It's in private mode so after I'm done, I'll put it up again. Sorry! Gonna ZZzz... Didn't do a single piece of work during this weekend... Lala... Die man... All tutorials due tmr are blank! :P Goodnight! Shall just type stuff for some people here...

Faye - You ok? Didn't look too happy during worship today. Cheer up k! :( I'll save food from the party for you and if we have all those party poppers, goody bags and stuff! Haha! Ok, sound like pri sch kid. Heh. Enjoy your time in Malaysia! I want to leave Singapore for awhile too!! When're you leaving btw? Which part of Malaysia? I forgot. Heh.

GBers - Hols are coming. So are we having the study group thingy? Where? Holland Village? 5th Ave? -hugs to all 8 of you- Hmm... Less than 8 I think. Not all of you know about this blog. Haha.

Those who just had term exams, midyear, tests, etc - Hope they were fine, kay? If not, don't be discouraged. Hardwork pays off. Continue working and we'll all do well for As! :) It's hard I know. I'm trying super hard to study for Physics but can't seem to do questions. -sigh- Oh well... Happy studying! :P

Tan - Heya! :) Study hard! All the best k! Don't let me down! Yourself too! You know you can do it! :) Love ya! Miss ya too! -muakz-

Shaun - How did the meeting go? Ok? See ya on Tue! :)

"We all have different gifts, each of which came becoz of the grace God gave us..." - Romans 12:6

Hello! :) Ok, decided not to change. Haha. Thought it over and decided not to change. I mean, why should I change just coz Weizhi might know. I don't even know if he really knows. Do you? If you're reading this, tell me k? Aiyah, just don't want so many people to know. This is actually for my good friends only and even some close friends don't know about it. I don't look like the sort that blogs I think. :)

Go download the song I'm listening to now. Damn nice! :) Faye introed it to us today during her worship. It's so meaningful. Ginny Owens' voice is also really nice. Here are the lyrics. It's really sweet. It's a must-download!

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason
Why you brought me here
And just becoz You love me
The way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Coz I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I cling onto the promise
You're not through with me yet
So if all these trials
Bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way
I would've chosen
When You'll lead me through the world
That's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You're only said I'll never go alone
Yeah yeah ohh
So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer
My cries for help
I'll remember the suffering
Your love puts you through
And I will go through the valley
If you want me to

Anyway, did I tell you Alex, my classmate was a model for Laselle? Cool right? He was supposed to show me the photos but he keeps forgetting to bring!! Grr... That pig... I wanna see!! :P He's not bad looking but he has the kind of look that people might not like when they first see him. As in he looks like the kind you want to bash up. Haha. But he's nice lah. This year he got nicer. Don't know why. Oh well... Heck... Was talking to my juniors last night about him. They thought that we ostracised him but it's really not our fault. He doesn't like the class so he joins S11. There may be other reasons that I'm not supposed to say. Hehe! Shall shut up if not he'll kill me :P

Okies, ought to start telling you abt what happen the past few days.

13th of May
Val told me she really lost her file. She was hoping she left it at home or at the pitch and someone would've taken it for her but no one returned. -sigh- She brings a lot of stuff in her file also, meaning a lot of her notes are gone. Poor thing. Lent her some of my notes to photocopy.

Didn't have PT coz of napfa on Tue but stayed back to study Chem and watch the soccer match against TPJC. During lunch, I msged Darryl to wish him happy belated birthday. Totally forgot about it man! My goodness. Felt so bad but then again, I doubt he even knows when my birthday is. He sounded like he had fun though so whatever lah. :P

Was studying with Teng Ren, Leon and Peanut while waiting for the soccer match to start. I tell you ah... That Leon is mad! Haha! You can NEVER study with him around man. Everything he says is funny plus he's soooo cute. He's like a little boy. Heh. Damn funny man. We were laughing like mad coz he was just crapping and crapping and crapping. -LOL- Oh! We won TPJC!! 1-0! Woohoo! I didn't manage to see the only goal coz I went down with Peanut too late. The goal was scored in 1st half. They wanted to score another one but they couldn't so they played defensive. Not bad game but many balls could've gotten in. Oh well... At least we won! :) There was a hockey match at that time too. Against AC. We drew 0-0. Quite good considering that we've lost quiet a number of matches and AC is quite good. But that didn't change the fate of the hockey girls. They are still out. :(

14th of May
Msged Nelson to wish him happy birthday and that he did well during soccer :) Miss having him in my class... -sigh- He's such a nice person. I mean, he's damn gentlemanly and stuff. We lack such people lah. -sigh- Oh well... Nvm...

Napfa test! I got a gold! Woohoo! FINALLY after 2 years of silvers. Heh. Lousy lah me. Actually I got a silver again but really damn suay. My 2.4 run timing was only 0.01 min away from a B, shuttle run also 0.1 s away from a B, inclined pull-ups 2 pull-ups away from a B! -pissed- Got an A for sit ups and C for the rest at first. Needed just 1 B instead of a C to get a gold. Tried shuttle run, inclined pull-ups, sit and reach and standing board jump 2 times each! Haha! In the end my sit and reach improved by 5 cm. Got my B. So happy. Haha. I'm super happy about my sit-ups and pull-ups! Improved a lot man! 44 sit-ups per min as compared to 38 last year and 11 pull-ups instead of 7 last year! PT really helps man! :)

The rest of the day was boring. Stayed in school to study. Nothing much happened...

15th of May
Pat Leong nagged in the morn as usual. -sigh- Forever saying the same thing. She's not tired man. This time she added stuff about BGR. She said that some people in our level are getting attached at this time. Mad man. I think it's madness to start smth now. I'll probably fail my As or smth. Ting tong! But then again, sometimes I know it's pretty hard to control. Oh well... My Mr D doesn't even know. Hmm... Or maybe he can sense it. I don't know. Heck. Argh! Crap. Notice I don't really talk about him? Rather talk about all those small little crushes here and there. Don't want to think about him. It's called like him until it becomes part of you and all you want is to be happy seeing him. That's all I'm asking for. As in I don't mind being a good friend of his and that's it but if smth is possible why not? -sigh- Won't happen lah... Lalala... Let's not talk about it... I'm trying to keep it out of my head... I need to study man. He's also got As this year and I might leave the country next year so yep, don't want to have anything I don't want to leave behind without worrying. Back to what I was saying about Leong talking about BGR stuff, I'm wondering if she's talking about Karen and Lih Sheng also. I mean, they're the only couple left in the class and their results have been rather terok this year. I think they shouldn't have gotten together. It was Lih Sheng that made Karen feel bad. She actually wanted to start after As only but Lih Sheng wanted it. -sigh- Whatever man... I don't know about such rubbish. Don't want to be stuck in such a situation also! :P

The rest of the day was boring. Had 2 practicals as usual. Wednesdays are my prac days. So boring. So hot also! The 2 pracs were rather easy. Completed the Chem quite fast. I mean, usually we'll exceed the 2 periods and go for Math tutorial late but this time we were early! 1st time man! Had Physics prac after that. Mr Lee told those who got below 40 for Physics common test that we have to see Mrs Foo [HOD of Science] for bad Physics results. Alex, Clement, Karen, Lih Sheng and I had to see her. Stupid Mr Lee said I don't pay attention in class. What the... Grr... Idiot! Don't like him! :P I mean his lessons don't really help, sometimes I'm asking people how to do certain questions, sometimes I talk to people coz I'm bored and sometimes people talk to me what. Stupid pig. He has smth against me man. :(

Stayed back in school to study. Didn't have lunch coz everyone was gone by the time I left the HOD room. Don't want to eat alone. Think that's very sad. :( Went straight to the library. WC called me to ask where training is and that he was going to be late but I told him I wasn't going. Oops :P Ran out of the library to pick up the class then decided to take a walk around since I was kinda falling asleep. When I got back, I saw 1 of the librarians packing up my stuff. Got chased out of library. There was library investiture. Crap. Was about to leave for home when Val called me up to ask if I was leaving for home. She left all her notes in her locker. I asked if I could join them and she said ok so I went over to Starbucks. I had not eaten and I wanted to study with people also. Such a relief. At least I wasn't studying alone. Damn boring. Sharlene left first, Val next. She didn't want to go home so late. Left Starbucks at 2000 h. Gwen stayed till 2030 h. Wah... So late. That was the time I reached home. Took a cab. My mum wasn't very happy that I got home so late. Sort of scolded me and questioned my intentions of studying outside. Crap lah. I was really studying! Don't know why she's so suspicious all the time. Can't she even trust me a little? Gwen's mum didn't even make so much noise. At least I called back to tell her I was going to be late. When I ran up to get money from my piggybank, she kept questioning me and all I said was I was really studying, it's up to her to believe and frm her voice I know that she's thinking I was with a guy. Everything I do boils down to me being boy crazy. Mad. I'm not ok! I don't flirt like some people do. Crazy. Had dinner after paying the taxi driver. Complained to my maid throughout my dinner. Haha. When I went upstairs to put my stuff down and take a bath, my mum was nice to me again. Mad. Mood swings are really weird. Either that or i knocked some sense into her. As in, she got convinced that I was really studying. Phew. -wipes sweat- Think she's just not used to me going home so late and studying outside. She thinks I get distracted very easily. It's quite true but Starbucks is quite a conducive place to study. It was surprisingly quiet. I wouldn't have gone if there were people in school but too bad, I got chased out of the library also what! Don't really like reading room.

P/S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANDREA AND DEREK! :) They'll probably never get to read this but whatever lah. Haha...

16th of May
Lydia's [My primary school best friend] birthday! :) Msged her at 0000 h but she was asleep already. She replied at about 0900 h to say she was surprised that I still remembered. Of coz I remember! :) My friends are very impt to me!

Ponned Chem lect so that i could study 5 blocks in a row. Had Econs lect after Chem lect what. It's the 4 periods of lect in a row day. No one skipped lect with me so I went into the library alone. Saw Gerald [year 1 sailor]. He skipped Math lect to complete History homework. Funny guy. 2 year 1s sat with us also. Don't know them. Only seen 1 of them around. Nicole. She's a cheerleader. S4 also. Think she's really sweet :) The 2 of them thought I was a year 1 also. Haha. I should feel quite flattered right? I mean, it means I look young! Hahaha... Ok, crap... :P That Gerald wasn't even concentrating on his work. Kept looking at mine! Kept telling him to study if not Samuel Lim would kill him. Haha. He didn't manage to finish his homework. Wonder if he got scolded. He's like a small kid man. He left after the 2 periods. Val came in so I sat with her. The hockey people [Zhiwei and Sharlene] joined us. Think Gwen and Eunyce were having lessons. Went to eat during break.

When I got to class after break, stupid Vagen and Yiwei were suaning me about Gerald. Like hello? He's a year one [but then again, year 1 guy and year 2 girl can what right? I mean, there are many of these kind but I don't really approve of it. Hmm... Then how about Peiren? Haha. No lah. That one play play one. He's just cute. :P] and I just sat with him only. Wah... Say until like that. Oh well... People always do that when you're with a guy alone. Mad. Nothing better to do. Haha.

Stayed back to study with Szeying and Peanut. The rest were either in reading room or went home. Peanut left at about 1600 h. I was planning to leave at 1800 h but at 1700 h, I remembered I had tuition at 1730 h! Haha! Msged Szeying that I needed to get out of school now. She came up and we both walked really quickly out of school and I took a cab back. Haha. Msged Mr Loke to tell him to come at 1800 h instead. Wah... I'm damn blur sometimes. Was too caught up studying Chem lah. Really... During tuition, Mr Loke was explaining so many things to me. Had 2 and a 1/2 h tuition. Haha. Always like that before a test.

Oh yesh! 1st soccer semi-finals match! We won AJ 5-1!! Yippee! :)Msged Daryl to suan him! Who ask him! :P

17th of May
Marvelle's birthday! :) My twin! Gotta get her a present. She got my Xmas present last year but I didn't get her anything. Better get something for her. I don't know what to get though. How?! Need to shop somemore. Excuses! :P Rach's birthday too! :)

Had very weird assembly. Didn't sing the school song straight after the pledge. Mr Seet went on stage to tell us to mean what we sing and that we should be proud to be a Victorian. He was trying to encourage more people to go down for matches to cheer also. Very strange. Heh. Ponned every single lecture. Haha! Was in the reading room studying for Chem lah. Bobbs and Val were with me also. Had Math tutorial and break after that. Missed Math lect. They took attendance. Gonna get into trouble but don't care lah. My Chem was more impt! Stupid Mrs Chua. Somehow I knew she would take attendance. Didn't bother anyway but the thing is my class had the most absentees. Argh! Confirmed kena by Pat Leong on Wed. I think the matter would be brought up to her since my class didn't do well for Math either. Crapz. Ah whatever.

Had tutorials then went for Physics remedial. Val didn't go. It was a total waste of time but Mr Lee already has a bad impression of me so I better go. Didn't really pay much attention though :P Came home after that. Started doing Chem only at night. Was quite drained already. Slept at 2300 h while reading my notes on my bed. Haha. Yep. That's all for Fri. :P

P/S: Oh yes! Rugby finals! AC won! Woohoo! Trashed RJ like mad man! 23-0!! Woohoo! Yeah! That's the way! :)

18th of May
Already wrote an entry at Val house but shall just tell you what went on after that entry. Went to Textile Centre with Val. Bought my string of sequins to sew on my bag. Doing it later. Val wanted to find something to stitch over a spoilt patch one of her t-shirts but couldn't find. nice ones. All looked so biang. Haha. Shouldn't go to those places to find... But then again, where else? I don't know of many places where you can find such stuff. Then we walked to Concourse. Bought this iron-on pattern for my bag. So nice! Val and I bought stick-on tatoos. Heh. Shiny ones! So pretty!~ Won't really use it I think. Haha. Got Yanlong a top hat. He needs it for band concert. Walked to Suntec in the freaking hot sun! Was perspiring like mad. Luckily I was going to bathe after that. Val on the other hand was already clean. Haha... Whoops. I'm mean! -LOL- We took a bus from there. Wah... The stupid 14 and 16 took sooo long to come! Finally got home, bathed then went shopping! :) Didn't buy anything except a present for Peanut. Val got a pencil box. It's damn bright. Nice lah.

We took a cab to school for the guitar concert. It was rather boring but I was only looking forward to Joel and gang's performance. I think WC looked damn cute when he was playing the bass. Haha. He was bobbing up and down. Haha. Must suan him when I see him in school. TJ was playing the drums for some other group. He's a year 1 from band. Not bad I think. Tama was there too! -faints- Haha. He's a cannot-make-it buaya. Really lah. He's damn uncle and he thinks he's so good. Keeps on telling people that he's a really good bf when he never even got a gf before! He keeps acting cool. Really terrible. Haha. After everything, everyone shouted encore and the last performance was Joel singing "Valentine" with a girl guitarist. Damn nice! Joel's voice is fantastic! :) Oh! The 2 of them held hands. They were standing right in front of Alicia! Oh man... Poor thing. She had to see her bf holding another girl's hand. She was laughing a little though. Heh. So cute. The concert ended at about 2245 h. Walked out of school with Val to wait for transport home at the school gate. Her dad came quite fast. I waited for my sis and Mal till about 2300+ h man! So long! :( Msged Chris to tell her about Joel. Was telling her that her taste is good man. Haha. But too bad. Not hers anymore. She was very upset about the breakup last time. They were forced to break up. Can't remember why. So sad. He's a nice chap. From my OG. Oh yes! Val revealed to me that Gil is attached to Reuben! Woohoo! Shh.... Not supposed to say. Wah... She don't want her Miss Ho already ah? -hiaks- No wonder she hasn't been doing very well... Lalala... :P

Came home and turned on the comp! Finally get to chat after 1 week! Damn long ok! Hehe. Was online till about 0200 h. Haha. Whoops :P Talked to Shaun after that. He msged me on ICQ to ask if I was free to talk. Scare me can. Thought he had a problem. Wah... Actually to tell me about him leaving PLH and that he was going to talk to the comm. It's impt lah but when he was asking if I was free to talk, I thought there was smth wrong. Chey. Heh! :P Anyway, didn't talk to him very long. Gonna meet him on Tue to talk about PLH and whether I want to follow. He said Daryl will follow if he goes. I'm not going to go coz they are going but I rather not be kept in the dark. :) Thanks, Shaun. See ya on Tue. :) I'm still thinking if I should leave. There are people whom I don't want to leave but yet I want to leave coz I'm not growing and I'm rather tired of playing for the band. It affects my worshipping as what I told Shaun last night. Somehow I don't concentrate when I'm playing the guitar. I'm concentrating more on playing the right chords. -sigh- Oh well... I'll just continue praying about it... Hope I find an answer very soon. I need to know by June at least.

Softball and tennis matches were in the morning. Softball girls trashed HCJC 2-1! Woohoo! Good!! :) Felicia rocks! She was asked to join national team! Good huh? Chio, smart and good at softball! :P Tennis girls lost to NJ. -sigh- Oh well... Nvm... At least softball won! :)

Today
My mum woke me up late today! Was about 10 mins late for band prac. Again! :( Took a cab down to church. Wah kaoz... My 4th time this week taking cab man! Forever late these few days. Don't know why. My time management is getting from bad to worse! -sigh- Anyway, there were only 4 songs to play and another song was being played on CD. Faye was leading. Practised until about 1045 h then talked to Jo and Andrea about life in MG last time. So fun. I mean to hear from all different generations. Damn funny. And to think that Jo and I had nearly same teachers. Jo is 24 and was my sis' Sec 4 classmate. Damn funny. We were talking about Miss Goh and Mr Lim. Ha! Ultimate jokes. But they are nice teachers lah. They are way nicer than most of the teachers in VJ. At least they don't backstab you like stupid Mr Lee!~ :( Played the songs then had a talk by Pastor Leona Boey. The talk was about the Bible character Esther. Nice story. Pastor Boey is usually quite boring but today she was ok. But then again, I was busy trying to read the whole book of Esther so didn't really listen. Heh. She can't talk to teenagers man. Doesn't know how to handle us. At least crack some jokes. So serious -sigh- At least I was reading on what she was talking about. All she did was to retell the story to us. After the talk, I had to keep the guitar then awlked with the rest downstairs. Stupid Andrea. She started to scratch my sleeve. Ok, you know those rubber designs on t-shirts? Err, I don't know what it's called. Some iron-on thing. She was trying to scratch it off! Kana sai... Want to die ah?! :P Then Shaun poked me. Wah rau... In the end, the whole world started to irritate me! Grr... Never die before is it?! :P Didn't want them to continue so I said bye and ran off. Ha! -grins-

Came back home, had lunch and came online. Been online ever since. Actually was only planning to stay for awhile coz I was waiting for my Physics tutor but he called up to say that he's sick. So I'm only going to have tuition on Thurs! Woohoo! :P Don't like tuition on Sundays anyway. It's the Sabath day. Should be taking a break! -sheepish grin- Going out for dinner soon anyway. Don't know where we'll be going later. Just had my bath. So bored!

Ok, think i better get offline. Gotta decorate my bag now. Take care! :) See ya!

"Each one of us has a body with many parts, and these parts all have different uses. In the same way, we are many, but in Christ we are all one body. Each one is a part of that body, and each part belongs..." - Romans 12:4-5






take the antisocial test.


and go to mewing.net. because laura's feeling social.

I THINK someone is reading my blog without me knowing, RIGHT?! Argh!! MAY!! Why did you put me on your list?! Now I've got to change my blog again! Wah rau... irritating! Like nearly everything is written here ok! I don't want to type private entries lah. There're some stuff that I don't mind showing to other people but I've to keep it a secret from some others! Grr... PIG! Wah rau... Damn pissed... Ok, I shall shut up and type my last entry here... I just started liking Live Journal and I've to stop using it! Argh! Bloody hell... Or should I just not bother and continue using this? :*( You know who you are... Stop reading pls? PLS? Argh... Thanks...

Heya! Just had Chem test. At Val's house now. Ashley [her dog] is with me. Val's in the shower. Oh! Talking about dogs, did I tell you that my sis is planning on getting a dog?! YAY!!! Thought she can't coz she has asthma so never asked my mum if we could get a dog. So happy! Heh! But gotta get a dog that doesn't shed hair! :P Been waiting for a day when I can get a dog! :) Love dogs. Also kena influenced by Val lah.

Anyway, just now's Chem test was rather easy. I mean, considering I only left 1 part that's only worth 1 mark blank. Good huh? :P The MCQ wasn't very easy. Ok, tell you smth funny. I was sitting in the first row with Val and Karen. You know for MCQ most of the time there's an Optical Answer Sheet (OMS) right? My row didn't get it and we didn't know we were supposed to have it. None of us asked Mr Yeo for it so at the end of the test he asked for it. Haha~ Damn blur can! He gave us extra time to shade the ovals. Haha. Oh well... I really wanted to ask for the OMS from him before the test but er, don't know why I didn't. Heh. Heck. Shall just ask next time -grins-

Going shopping later! Yay! Gotta find stuff to decorate my new Eastpak. It's too plain. Hehe. Totally black damn boring lah. Then going shopping~!! Woohoo! It's been ages man. I don't know what to buy but just want to buy smth. Heh. Crap lah. Then going for guitar concert in school again. That's why I'm in Val's house. She's bathing now then we're going to Textile Centre to get the stuff to decorate my bag then my house coz I need a bath too!

Wah rau! PK just told me he's going US on Monday for Odessey of the Mind! That lucky pig! I want to go!!! Kenneth [Val's best friend, rugger from Barker, in Est's class now] is also in Thailand! Wah! Why is everyone going overseas?! I also want!!!!! :P

Okies, gotta go! Take care! Updating will probably be tonight! Tata! -muaks-

P/S: About the virus thingy, it's from the email with the subject "Joke" and it says it has no virus. Help k! Thanks!

Heya my fans! Miss me??? Hehe. Having Chem test tmr so haven't been updating. So sorry. Will type a whole chunk of stuff that happened to me since the last time I updated so be prepared to read a whole lot of rubbish again! Heh! Don't have to read it if you don't want coz this IS my blog and sometimes it's nice reading about what happened to you last time. That's if I ever flip back to the older entries. Heh! :P But still I think I talk to much sometimes so I tend to write a lot also. Haha!! -grins-

Okies, got to go. Just wanted to say hi and is anyone interested in playing badminton or tennis with me during the hols?? Heh. Need to exercise man! Getting fatter :( Okok, better get back to my work. Take care and let me know k? And by the way, did I happen to lend my Cine Play card to anyone here? I lost it and if I can't find someone who has it, I have to get a replacement. Gotta pay money!! -sigh- Broke. Still owe Peanut and Chris their presents! Argh!!! Tata! :)

P/S: Attention to all internet whizes! Heh! Is there ANY way I can get the stupid worm out of my computer? Don't ask me to d/l coz I found stuff but I just couldn't d/l. Whenever I tried, my internet explorer shuts down. Now my winamp also kena. When I have too long a list and I scroll down to the bottom, it shuts down! My Kazaa also about the same. Suddenly shut down for nothing! HELP PLS!!!!!!!

"Something from the Spirit can be seen in each person, for the common good." - 1 Corinthians 12:7





Find your inner donut.

Worship Sunday was great! :) I played a few bad intros. At least it was better than during the practices. Heh. Had a meeting with the rest of the people involved in worship Sunday for evaluation. Didn't know what to say when Shaun asked me coz I didn't really have very high expectations. I mean, I didn't really take note of the worship leading. Was caring more about the band. It's quite bad I know but I've only 1 brain and it was concentrating more on the band. Heh. That's why I don't like to play guitar sometimes. I can only feel more into worship when I'm singing with the rest. Strange huh? Oh well... I'm not playing from next month I hope! Just now Mel said smth about the band retreat. Shucks. I thought my term ends in June?! Daryl gave me a funny look when I said I'm free for the retreat during the earlier part of June. I didn't get it at first but after that I realised it was about my term with the band. Or was it not coz of that? Don't know. Forgot to ask him. Heh. Heck -shrugs- After that, Daryl came up to Andrea and I to talk about Dan's party. I told him about the song April wrote for Dan and that we probably go down earlier to practise on the day itself. He said he knows about it but we've to think about other stuff to do coz there's nothing much lined up for the day. Yikes. Brainstorming time again! :P

Walked down with Faye and she was telling me that we should try to build a good relationship with the new mentors. True but I think some of them are a lil old? :P She said at most we go with Jo, Mel, Jin, Aud and the rest whom we're comfy with lah. I'm fine with it. I'm free next Sunday! :) After Chem test! Yipee! -grins-

Came home after that. Had the leftovers from last night's buffet as lunch. Quite good I must say. I'm not sick of it yet. Heh. After lunch, there's not much left except for the fried rice. Heh. Zeny had off day today. Good for her. She'll be able to call her mum also :) Been slacking since lunch. Gotta have my bath soon coz I've to study Chem then go for dinner later. Taking my grandparents out for dinner at the Shanghainese restaurant I went to recently. The one at Taka. Think I talked about it in here before. I did right? Ah... Whatever man. Heh.

Okies, think I better go. Got to do some stuff. Take care! See ya around! :) Hope you had a great weekend and have a great week ahead. I've a feeling I'm gonna die this week. It's mugging for Chem week! :( Nvm, Chem rocks! :) Love ya all!

P/S: HAPPY MUM'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS! :)

Sometimes you feel odd even when you're doing the right thing.


What Never Ending Story character are you?Yeah, Ceni did this.

Hey! :) Just got home from walking around with some of the GBers. Was supposed to be out with them celebrating Cass' birthday but I couldn't coz I said I'm sort of grounded. So sad. They watched Spider-man. Watched already so I was fine with it but the dinner at NYDC part lah. They seemed like they had a lot of fun when Cass had to blow the candles out using a long straw. -sigh-

Actually I'm still wondering if I could've gone. Maybe I could but I'm really scared to ask my mum. Haven't told her about my GP. Think some of my classmates were rather shocked that I failed also. When I was quite upset about the results, they asked is it coz I didn't get a certain grade. When I said I failed, they were like "are you sure?!" Yes I'm sure and I did so how? I'm still TRYING to find a mark to pass or at least get some sympathy from my teacher. Right. As though she'll give me the mark. I've been slacking in class this year. It's not a surprise that I failed coz last year I kept sitting in front and interacting with her. This year I just sit behind sometimes and shut up. I don't know why. This year my attitude really sucks. Gotta change man. I'm gonna sit RIGHT IN FRONT UNDER MY GP TEACHER'S NOSE like what I did last year and talk to her whenever she needs response! I guess she still has hope in me and knows that I'll do ok at least compared to the rest of the class. I SHOULD also coz I speak English while most of the people in my class don't. I'm starting to read again. Zek, can you believe I'm still stuck with that book I bought with you that time?! Mad right? Halfway already. Gonna finish it by this week I suppose. Need to get a new book. Heh. Hopefully not by a local writer this time. Have a list of books to read. Seem like they are good books? Want me to recommend? Hmm... Shall just list them down... Some are recommended by people and I happen to come across some of the others...

1. Melinda Haynes - Mother of Pearl [Val. She said this is a must read.]
2. Michael Golding - Benjamin's Gift [Val also. Haha.]
3. John Grisham - A Painted House [Zek! Is it good?]
4. John Grisham - The Summons [saw it in Borders]
5. Hwee Hwee Tan - Mammon Inc. [was reading the front part of this while waiting for Chris last time. My next book! But it's a local writer!! Should stop. Very limited scope and I feel the style of writing is abt the same.]
6. Anita Shreve - Sea Glass [after Mammon Inc. I'm reading this! I like her too :)]
7. Jeffery Deever's The _____ Monkey [anyone knows? I heard it over the radio. It's either stole or stoned monkey.]
8. Neil Gaiman - American Gods [Joy said this is good. Shall read it after I've read the rest! Haha!]
9. Don Delilo - The Body Artist [the review in TIME said it's a good book so shall read it too.]

Tmr is Mother's Day! My sis got her a voucher for manicure and all those kinda of stuff at some place. Oh no! Talking about that, I was supposed to sign the card! Shit. Gotta do it after I'm done with this! Hope I remember! :P

Oh yes! I totally forgot about band prac today! Jo had to call me. Haha. It really slipped my mind. After tuition, I had lunch then went online. Jo called me while I was online and asked me what was I doing at home! Haha! Rushed down to church in a cab. I SHOULDN'T have taken a cab! Waste my money! It cost me $7.80!! My church is at Prinsep Street only k! Normally it's $3+ only! :( Jam all the way man. I think it would've took me the same duration to reach church if I walked! Cheaper also! Grr... Anyways, band prac was a lot better today. At least more organised and quiet. Did someone say smth after reading my blog? :P Kurt still irritated me a little. Didn't really care. Was more interested in playing my intros! Haha!

Jo sent us to town. Walked with Andrea to find Rachael's present. Faye is sending a package over. Cool! :) We got her a bangle. It's quite sweet. From Perlini's. When we saw it, we both thought it's so Rach. Heh. Luckily we found smth. She came over to my place while waiting for her friend to get down to town. She was going to find smth for her mum. Went my grandma's house after that.

Okies, UPDATE again! :P

6th of May
Went to school with puffy eyes coz I cried the night before remember? I sounded a lil nasal also. Qingxi asked if I was sick. Heh. I think he could tell. Not too sure about that. He can tell whenever I'm not in a good mood sometimes.

Mrs Sultan didn't come to school again. She's been absent quite often nowadays. So sad. Hope she's feeling better. It's always her throat that gives her problems. Mr Samuel Lim came in instead. He's the sissy GP teacher with a nice bod and is engaged [or is it married?] to an Econs teacher in VJ also. Heh. He came in and said smth like this, "Sorry s45, you've to see me afain coz Mrs Sultan isnt feeling well but don't worry, I'll just hand out the GB reading articles and I'll be gone." Heh. He's quite funny lah. Just a little sissy :P You know like half the class was falling asleep while doing GP reading but I was super awake coz of my kopi in the morn! Haha! :P

After GP was Chem lect on Carbohydrates. Another Biochem chapter. Quite boring. Sat with Nik. Val abandoned us. She sits with the hockey people whenever she can now. Hmm... Think she's trying to stay away from the class. Don't know lah. She sat with Gwen, Zhiwei and some of the hockey guys~ Haur Bin was there! Just few seats away from me also. Haha! So cute! :P Anyway, I was talking to Nik about Sean [my sp] and his gf. She said there're problems with him and his gf AGAIN. Wah rau... If break up again, I'm seriously gonna laugh lor. I mean, they've been breaking up and getting back together countless of times! But he really likes her. Since Sec 2 I heard. He's possessive that's why Rachel doesn't like it. Why's that always the prob? -sigh- Was also talking about Lim Yew, a sailor. She's quite sought after by many guys. I think she looks nice and is quite stylo :) Nik thinks she's not pretty and doesn't know why so many guys like her. Oh well... Don't really bother. You see ah, Nik is like Lim Yew so she can't understand. Only people who aren't like that, that is me, can tell :)

Oh yesh! Gotta tell you about the joke about Peanut! Haha! :P Coz the lect theatre was damn noisy. People like me not listening. Heh. Then the teacher told us to shuddup and asked us if we've heard the saying "Empty vessels make the most noise." I suddenly remembered during break a few days back Xiuhui was trying to suan Peanut by saying that but Peanut hadn't heard that saying before so she was kinda blur. She didn't hear it properly so she asked what did Xiuhui say and I told her to fill in the blanks "What vessels make the most noise?" She just went huh all the way until we had to tell her the answer. Wah rau... How can you not hear that phrase before? I thought many people say it? I even heard Mrs Leong [form teacher] and Ms Lee [chem teacher] say it to the whole class before! Hmm... Must be not paying attention. Haha. Nik said she hasn't heard it before. Strange huh? Oh well... Heck :P

Finally Chem lect ended. Alicia [Xiuhui's friend] came up to me after Chem lect and said that Xiuhui told her I'm quite sick of my Nike bag so was wondering if she could buy it from me. I was sooo glad she asked coz I think that bag is a lil too holey and it rains whenever I carry it. Irritating. Heh -LOL- Sold it to her for $30. I bought it for $39. Actually I think it was quite a steep price but she said it herself. As in she quoted the price and said it's in quite good condition so good :) Break time. Bobbs sat in front of me and said grace. I asked him if he only said grace in front of me coz sometimes I know he forgets and when he sees me, he'll say it. Sometimes lah. Not now anymore I think. He just said, "Eh you damn thick-skinned leh! Think you've such great influence in my life is it?!" Haha. But after that he said good that I thought so highly of myself coz it's uncommon. Hmm... He was trying to say that I've very low confidence. He always says that and I think it's true. :( Oh well... Heck... What to do? Sometimes, people around me demoralise me and my results aren't improving so sometimes I lose confidence in myself. Yikes. Better stop :(

Had tutorials after that. Nothing much happened except for smth Peanut did that pissed me off. I was bored during Math and was acting crazy. Told Val that I've a secret and that it was I needed to pee. It was true but I was being mad lah. Nothing to do what. Then I told that to Peanut too then suddenly she just put up her hand while Ms Loh was explaining the answer and said that I needed to go to the toilet. Like wah rau! I mean, teacher is explaining stuff and she's already not happy with the class' results and you still make her angry by interrupting her and telling her rubbish! And Yiwei also another one. He just stood up in the middle of Math, walked to the table where the file of assignments are and searched through it for his assignment! He stood up for about 15 minutes and I could tell Ms Loh wasn't really very happy about it. Always like that. Now you know why it's so distracting to study in my class sometimes. I didn't really talk to Peanut and Val told her I was quite pissed. I was thinking of acting pissed to see if she would apologise. I realised that she probably won't and my anger doesn't normally last that long. Wasn't in a very good mood in the first place so yeah... Oh well... Nvm...

Planned to go the Kiliney branch at Siglap with Peanut for lunch. Craving. AGAIN! Haha! :P I'm kinda addicted to Kiliney I think. Hehe. It was closed!! Sucks! Only open alternate Mondays! Crap man! Settled for Onyx instead. It was ok lah. Had pasta. Quite good I think. Not many people there so the food came quite fast. Went back to school and was talking to Peanut about webpages. Told her about my new page :) Both of us didn't feel like studying straight away so we went to the computer lab and I showed her my page, shaun's as well as joy's. She said they're nice :) Did some work then went to watch the soccer match against RJ. We won 1-0! :) Didn't have PT coz of napfa on Tue. Yay! Heh! Msged Aaron [Xinru's bf] to wish him best of luck. Saw him playing and I think he was rather upset RJ lost. He was angry when he allowed one of our players kick the ball while he was trying to pass it to his teammate. Good match though. Think we won by luck and not skill. RJ is not bad. Met Satvir at the bus stop again! 2nd time! Luckily she was there also. No one to take bus home with :( Talked to her about PLH matters. She's attending ARPC now. Seems like she's doing well there. She said she just goes for service there and can't be bothered about church matters. Heh. She was asking how PLH is and stuff. Told her I wasn't exactly very happy but I'm not that irritated yet so I'm still staying :P

Got home, had dinner, did some work then Zzzz... That's all for that day :P NexT! Haha!~

7th of May
Had napfa test. Only did 2.4 though. Did it with 01S41, 01S43, 01S46 and 02S62. So weird coz we were running with so many people. Last year we ran with 01S46 only. Didn't do fantastically well but I hit a C. -beams- Not bad considering I haven't been running much. Don't know my timing but should be earlier part of 15 mins. It was drizzling. Was quite hesitant at first and was complaining but after awhile I realised it was quite good weather to run so did it :) Had a shower after that during break then had GP and Physics lect. Nearly died during Physics lect. Mrs Chan sucks man. Her lect is sleeping and kena scolding time. Haha -LOL- Forever scolding us for talking. She wastes sooo much time scolding us. As though it really works. Heh! Didn't stay back in school to study. Was feeling quite listless so went back to slack. -sigh- Had Chem tuition at night. Slept early again. Crap man. Been sleeping sooo early these days!

8th of May
Had nagging from Mrs Leong again in the morn. -rolls eyes- She made us write down what our ambitions are, how we intended to achieve it, etc. All that crap. She said we should have an idea of what we want to do in the future now. Nik and I were questioning that coz we both didn't have a clue about what we planned to do in the future. I found out Nik has a strong interest in Chem too. Same :) It's just that I'm choosing between Archi and Chem. See how -shrugs- :P

Had Math small group remedial with Peanut and Val during the rest of the free period. Quite good. Cleared up stuff I didn't know about Stats. Yay! :) Had Chem prac after that. Didn't manage to get very clear results. Concluded the wrong thing ok! -sobz- In the end I had to copy from Allan. Sucks man. I think if I don't get my A for Chem during the As, it's coz of prac. -sigh- I want an A!! :( Math tutorial followed. Quite ok also. Physics prac was quite fun. -amazed- We did a design experiment. It was a electric circuit experiment. The one with jockey and stuff but this involved magnetism too. Can't be bothered to describe it to you. Haha.

Had training at Silver Bowl again. It was at 1530 h so Val waited awhile with me till about 1500 h. She saw Peiren -excited- running down to the air rifle place. I mean, air rifle range. Haha! Couldn't think of the word man! :P He's from air rifle?! Couldn't believe my eyes! He doesn't look like he's from air rifle!! -faints- Heh! Really lah. He's got quite an ok bod. Broad shoulders and small waist. It's just that you can't really see coz a typical AC person will tend to wear uniform that's 3 sizes bigger! Haha! :P Not saying that air rifle people are fat and look unfit. It's just... Aiyah, you get my point lah -grins- Just very unexpected.

Pok, Cheryl and I took a lift from Jean. Jean said she thinks I've improved! Cheryl second that! Yay! :) Was discussing about T-shirt design while bowling. Dawn was reeeaaallllyyy nuts man! Haha! She was damn funny. Must be in a good mood or else she won't even open her mouth! :P She was giving all sorts of funny ideas man. Mad! Heh! In the end, we decided to have a black based T-shirt with Victoria Junior College embroided in gold at the back and some red stuff in front. Gonna have the word "Smashin'" somewhere in front. So pretty. Wanted a picture of 2 bowling pins slanted such that it forms the letter "V" and a bowling ball in front of the 2 pins. Cool huh? -nudge- Heh. Dragged myself home after that. Was really tired. Did some hw then fell into a deep sleep on my bed. -snores- Heh!

Oh yesh! Yik came to VJ to trash us in tennis! Heard he and his doubles partner are unbeatable. Wah... Prissie shiok ah? :P There's another Indian state player who's damn saat also. They won VJ 5-0. Haaha... Heck lah. Their only competition is AC according to Jem. Jem was telling me about hockey. He said VJ guys are confirmed out already -sigh- Haven't talked to Jem for ages. Wonder how he is. I mean, he can say he's fine but really wonder how he is. Seems like he's doing well in academic terms. Duh, he's taking S papers in RJ!

9th of May
Woke up with a very bad stiff neck. Couldn't even turn to the right. This was the 2nd time I've gotten stiff neck before. It lasted the whole day. Actually it's still aching a little now but not that bad already. Was seriously painful!! Classmates were laughing at me the whole day coz I was like a robot. So mean! :( Heh. Oh well... Nvm lah. They were just being spastic.

Chem lect again. Mrs Foo exceeded time by sooo much. She was trying to finish up the whole set of notes but it was sooo obvious that she couldn't. In the end she blamed it on us for not paying attention so she had to waste time by making us keep quiet. Pig. She kept repeating herself ok!

Econs free after that. Did some hw then went to class for tutorials. Can't remember what really went on. Nothing significant I suppose coz I really can't recall. Oh well... Stayed back to do work after school anyway. Waited until the rest came out of Chem R then watched another soccer match. VJ vs JI. We lost 1-0!! :( JI was damn rough! Played sooo dirty! We've a national youth player called Wen Quan in our team. He normally doesn't get angry on the field but that day he shouted at the JI person tackling him. That person kicked his leg from behind and the ball went out also! Wen Quan nearly fell. Pig ok! We were already running out of time so he got even more agitated. Really haven't seen him screaming at his opponent before. From my side, I couldn't really see many fouls by VJ people but Tengren told me that from his side he could see that VJ people did foul a lot but they had skill. They did it super discretely. Haha. We lost. So sad. Thought we were out already. Luckily not! Monday's match is the determining one! We better win! Against TPJC. Don't know how good they are. Haven't really heard. Think VJ's soccer this year sucks. Sorry but it does. Last year was sooo much better. Wonder what happened. Oh! I took 16 and Peiren was on the bus! Woohoo! Haha! He's damn cute but Val says that she thinks he looks quite beng sometimes. True. I thought he looked like a gang leader that day when he was sitting with his friends. Haha. The kiam pa face but cute lah! :P

Had Physics tuition. Quite good. He teaches me how to tackle questions which is what I really need! Was a little sleepy coz I was out the whole day. I mean, I'm the kind of person whose brain dies if I'm not at home for at least 3 hours before doing work. Weird huh? :P

10th of May
Nothing much happened in the morn except that I found out Clement is scared of me! Haha! Coz of my temper. He said I get angry very easily. I cleared things up with him by saying I get angry easily I know but my anger doesn't last very long unless it's very serious. But really funny lah. Didn't expect him to be scared of me coz he's so much taller than me. I mean, he can just scold back what. Haha. I know lah. My temper sucks but sometimes I really can't control :( Help!!

Nik only came to school at 1200 h! Good huh? Could tell she cried the day before. Her eyes were freaking puffy! Worse than mine can! She was upset about sailing stuff lah. She was indirectly being told to get out of sailing. Stupid Cai lah. He's damn assholic. Can't stand him. Think he's sooo cool. -pukes- He brainwashed Mr Wee into thinking that Nik and Peanut sucks in sailing. The rest aren't that good either! I mean, there are others who are on par with them what. He's just not in good terms with them that's why. Really. Not trying to accuse him.

During Physics tutorial, Mr Lee interrogated me about not going for last week's Physics R. So now I'm supposed to be down every week. Shucks. He'll be taking note of me already. Had Physics R straight after Physics tutorial. Sian but learnt a little more than the last time I went. Came home after Physics lect. Took bus home with Sean. Haven't taken bus with him for sooo long. He was my busmate after Chem R but I don't have to go for Chem R anymore so :)

After dinner, I told mum that I sold my bag away and needed to get a new one. Walked around but couldn't find anything nicer than the normal Eastpak. Bought a black one :) Wanted Dawn's bag from British India but she requested that I don't bring it to school so what's the point?! Heh! Oh well... I still want it actually. It's what I want. The straps are holey but the bag itself isn't and it's soft! :) Bought my Eastpak already so heck. I'm finding stuff to decorate it with. Shall go shopping after my Chem paper! :P

Okies! Gotta do Chem then Zzz... Gotta wake up early for band tmr! Nites!

You don't figure out what you're good at sitting around or by trying something only once.



You actually read all I wrote?! Let me know who actually finished reading all that! I wouldn't if I were you! Waste time. Heh~

Bored... Thinking of whether I should ask my mum about tonight with the GBers. Should I? Really want to go leh. How?! -sigh- Just called Zek. She's on the way to Orchard to get the red fish carabina for me then come over. Haha. She wants to borrow Hillsongs' CDs coz she got her new MD! Good for her :) Gonna ask my mum later when she comes. Shall do my work now. Eh wait. Must bathe. Heh. See ya. Check this out. Haha. Some stupid survey I just did. Crap lah. Bored. Heh. Take care! I'll update after my Chem lah. No time. Tata! :)

1. First Name: jasmine
2. Middle Name: none
3. Last Name: tan
4. Nicknames: jas, jazzypoo, ladybug, |jas|, brinjal (!!!), etc
5. State: state? country? singapore... haha.
6. Age: 17+... coming 18!! :)
7. Sex: female
8. Birthday: 2nd nov -hint!!-
9. Astro Sign: scorpio
10. Siblings: 1 sis! :)
11. Pets: none. had 2 hamsters before. gave them away :(
12. School: vjc
13. Hair Color: dark brown? black? around there lah :P gonna streak it soon once As are OVER! :P
14. Eye Color: dark brown
16. Height: 1.64 m [i know i'm not very tall :(]

* R e l a t i o n s h i p s *
18. Do you have a crush or boyfriend/girlfriend?: crush! :P you know lah. have many many but most are not serious. only serious in 1 person. that mr d person :)
19. If so, what's his/her name?: well... i'm not disclosing his name. just calling him mr d!
20. How long?: er, many years?
21. What attracts you to him/her?: i thought i've mentioned he seems sooo perfect! :P
22. What do you look for in the opposite sex?: crushes? looks i suppose. nice bod, eyes and hair. heh. as for someone i really like, i really don't know. i can't really say only the heart counts. i would say someone with a kind heart, LOYAL and looks presentable. christian! sorry but i've had enough of squabbles between my mum and my sis. enough is enough. i rather not be in that situation.
23. Have you ever been in love? i love mark in a different way now. i don't love everything about him. i guess it was just puppy love. i LIKE him not love in that way. i love him as a friend.
24. Did your crush send this to you?: no. i found this in someone's blog :P

...F a s h i o n S t u f f...
26. Where is your favorite place to shop?: surf shops (my fav!), sports shops, queensway, isetan, kinokuniya and pasar malams!! haha! :P
27. Do you think your fashion is cool?: it'll always be around. i think it's ok lah. don't really get caught up with it. can't be bothered. heh. got more things to worry about.
28. Do you have anything pierced?: my ears
30. Do you have a tattoo: not now but i have paste on ones in my drawer!! haha!
31. Do you do drugs: nope!
32. Do you smoke: nopes

* O d d s a n d E n d s *
33. What kind of Shampoo do you use: clariol defence! :) body shop conditioner!
34. Do you flirt: eh? i don't really know how flirting is done. haha.
35. What are you most scared of: losing my loved ones and straying away from God.
36. How many phones in your house: including mobiles? 3 mobiles and 6 phones! 2 lines. haha!
37. What are you listening to right now: jaci velasquez's imagine me without You
38. Who are you talking to right now: no one
39. What time is it: 1241 h
40. Do you have your own line: erm, it's not mine but it's in my room so is it mine? heh.
41. Have you ever kissed someone: er... yep
42. Ever thought about suicide: no
43. What clothes do you sleep in: pjs and sometimes t-shirt and shorts
45. What car do you have: don't have lah. not mine. can't even drive!! :(
46. Who is the last person who called you: er, some schoolmate of mine with the same chem tutor as me. she was asking me for my chem tutor's house no coz she can't contact him thru his mobile.
47. Where do you want to get married: chijmes! or st theresa's church [the one near world trade centre]
48. How many people are on your buddy list: ? what buddy list? huh?
49. Have anyone on speed dial: yep. dad, mum, home, nette, prissie, jinfen, zek, xiuhui and val
50. Who's your hottest guy friend: friend? hmm... can't think of any now. heh.
51. Who do you really hate: no one in particular

*F a v o r i t e s *
52. Number: 2, 7, 8
53. Band/group/Artist: lincoln brewster, pyt, michelle branch, jay chou, utada hikaru, hillsongs, stephanie sun, puddle of mudd, mark shultz, clay crosse, collin raye, shino lin, altantic starr, jars of clay, jaci velasquez, evan and jaron, sonicflood, coldplay, avalon
55. Brand: eh? of what? roxy, ripcurl, nike, addidas, giordano [haha! believe it or not!], waipai, no brand stuff
56. Concert: hmm... haven't really been for concerts actually.
57. Song: many many!
58. Food: many many also!
60. Movie: star wars!!, sound of music, CENTERSTAGE!! :) can't think of anymore but i know there are many more.
61. TV show: friends! don't really watch tv.
62. Fast food restaurant: mos!
63. Girl Name: renee, meryl
64. Boy Name: brandon, nigel
65. Nail polish color: pink, purple
66. Clothing item: jeans, t-shirts, crop pants
67. Animal: doggy, dolphins, horses
68. Store: flash and splash
69. Ice Cream Flavor: vanilla
70. Game: board game: er, monopoly gets quite fun when you're playing with some of my classmates. hehe.

* H a v e Y o u E v e r *
71. Gave someone a bath: no!
72. Snuck out: hmm... yeah, used to sneak out last time when i wasn't allowed out so much :P
73. Drank: water? duh. haha. yeah of coz
74. Bungee Jumped: no
75. Had sex: no! :P
76. Went movie hopping: yesh! with esther! hehe.
77. Broke the law: er, i guess everyone has before. hee!
78. Ran from the cops: er no.
79. Broke a bone: nopes but spraind my ankle many many times. heh.
80. Swam all day long: ah, think so. at fantasy island.
81. Stole Something: yesh, that's the breaking the law part. aiyah, i was sooo young that time :P returned it in the end. heh.
82. Tried to kill yourself: no! too scared. heh.
83. Cheated on someone: nope. kena cheated yes :(
84. Made yourself throw up: no. maybe i shld try. haha. kidding. scary
85. Gone skinny dipping: nope. nothing to show :P
86. Been in love: er, don't know.
87. Ever made yourself cry to get out of trouble: yesh! ahhaha!
87a. Been Mellow?: ? huh?

* W h a t C o m e s T o M i n d *
88. Red: the colour i'm starting to like a lot!
89. Orange: zek! ahhaha! i love that colour too! :)
90. Yellow: coldplay! :P
91. Green: grass?? heh.
92. Blue: my colour! the sea, beach!!
93. Purple: my hp cover! heh. think of Peanut! :)
94. Pig: me. heh.
95. Cow: shaun!
96. Dog: cute!
97. Foot: huh? shoe?
98. Sun: beach! sun tanning!
99. Window: huh? er, taka? haha... that's what i see now :P
100. Phone: tan... waiting for her to call. haha.
101. Cross: God! :) Good Friday, Easter and my necklace.
102. Picture: photo album?
103. Closet: buy new clothes!!
104. TV: black box that everyone stares at. haha.
105. Bag: i just got a new eastpak! wanted this bag from british india but my friend who bought it first told me not to bring it to school so what's the pt? i was looking for a new schoolbag. sold my nike on to a schoolmate :P

* C l o s i n g R e m a r k s *
106. How many people are you sending this to: none.
107. Who will fill this out and send it back: none. haha.
108. If only one person would respond: ? will anyone?
109. Time Finishing: 1306 h
110. Closing remarks: i think this was supposed to be an email. haha. heck. bored lah. waiting for call!

Just becoz no one says "Wow!" doesn't mean you bombed.


Which Kirsten Dunst Are You?

Please laugh! :P

Yoz people! :) Hehe... Not in a particularly good mood coz I just realised I FAILED GP BY 1 PATHETIC MARK! Argh! I don't know if I can get it back. Didn't ask my teacher coz I think it won't help. After thinking about it in the bus, I decided to try tmr. -sigh- I can actually fail GP! Can't believe it. Never faile English before. GP is different I know but sucks lah. My English isn't that bad, is it? :( So far I haven't passed a single shit for this block of common tests. Shit. Better study harder for Chem. Gotta get at least a C this time. Don't care :(

UPDATE!
Anyway, I watched Spider-Man on Sat!~ :) Met the rest at Cine then had dinner at the Cine food court.I ordered Mui Fun and it turned out to be a SUPER HUGE plate!! Wah rau... Didn't finish it... Simply toooo much! :( FAT!

The guys were thinking of playing LaserQuest but the girls didn't want so haha. We just went to BK to talk. Got separated actually. The girls were sitting together and the guys sat together. The older ones were at Coffee Club Express. Saw Jamie, a hockey player at CCE too. She smiled and nodded her head to acknowledge me. Rather shocked coz she's been rather unfriendly towards me in school. VJ people are weird lah. Heh. She's quite sweet actually :P Msged Val to tell her I saw Jamie and she told me AJ beat our hockey guys. -sigh- AJ forever one!! :( Talked to Wynne and Faye and only moved next to the guys' table at about 11+. Henry came and squashed me to the wall. Wah rau... Wanna die ah?! -bish- Heh! He told us a lot of stuff about churches and some other stuff. Can't really remember but it was interesting. He never fails to capture your attention somehow :) We all left at 11+ and I walked with Eugene, Faye and Faye's best friend, Gayle. The rest all had transport home.

Didn't wake up in time for service that day :( Band prac at 1100 h. Andrea forgot about it. The people in the room were making soo much noise and Kurt kept playing the piano and the keyboard at the wrong times. I wanted to hear what I was playing but I just couldn't. Was soooo pissed but didn't say anything. It was only when it got too noisy that Jo, Andrea and I screamed at everyone. Haha. They were taken aback I think. No one actually heard Andrea and I scream at people before. Heh. Looks like I've found someone with just as low tolerance level as me. Everyone just suddenly shut up. But really what. I mean, last time we had Wynne and April to scream at everyone, now it's our turn. I think the only serious people there in the band that day was Andrea and me. Really what. Even Jo was playing sometimes. Sometimes is fine but there is a limit ESP WHEN YOU ARE IN A RUSH! I miss how things used to work. Far more organised and systematic compared to this. You know I want to leave PLH more and more as weeks go pass!! -sigh- Was complaining to April over SMS at night :( I think no one except people involved should be in the room when we are practising. Worship leaders should also do their part! -hinthint- :P

Left at about 1330 h. Took a cab back coz it was raining. Both Andrea and I stopped at Wisma. She was going to watch Spider-Man. Heh. She didn't join us on Sat :( Mum called when I was in the cab demanding to know why I was taking so long. :(

Showed mum the form to notify parents that student failed Math. -sigh- Stupid shit school! Must they do this?! Mr Ang [Math HOD] is an asshole! :( We only have this for Math ok! And of all subs, MATH! :*( My mum scolded me like mad coz I failed so many subs and Math is supposedly my best sub. Well, supposedly I guess. I've no best sub now. Now every sub sucks. -sigh- Cried like mad coz certain stuff she said was really true. I wasn't putting my heart and soul into studying and I just can't find the inspiration to do it!~ I was really disappointed and could tell that she was disappointed too. Didn't follow them for dinner. Refused to go. My eyes, cheeks and nose were all red so just didn't want to go and I wanted time on my own. They kept coming up to get me down. At first my sis then both my sis and mum. I told them to leave me alone and they finally left. Heard my dad and mum talking really loudly as they were leaving. Could hear from upstairs so I thought he was scolding her. I mean, sometimes my dad doesn't know what's going on lah. Felt bad. Called my sis up to tell her to tell dad not to scold mum coz it's my fault but she said they weren't quarrelling. She couldn't possibly tell them too. She said too weird. Hehe.. Whoops :P My sis called up to say they were buying sushi back for me. So sweet. Felt even worse.

Called Tan up. Was sooo glad she was at home. Felt really terrible. I said the usual "hello, may I speak to Tanya please?". Tymon picked up at the phone. I was controlling the sobbing coz I was afraid he was still listening. He used to do that lah. Then when Tan got to the phone, I said, "hello Tan" then I just started crying again. It was sooo funny coz she was wondering if it was Tish or me. Haha. I just went "Wait." She said ok and waited. Heh! Sorry, Tan! :P Finally I started talking and before I continued, she asked if I was allowed to call KL. I said don't know so we put down and she called me back. Told her everything lah. Was nice talking to someone rather than bottling everything up. Wah rau... It's been quite awhile since I cried like that. Think the last time was err 2 months back? Is that long? Hehe... Err, quite lah. I cry a lot lah. Baby! :P Put down after awhile coz Tan had exam the next 2 days. She was telling me about school and her external exam. Looks like she's gonna have a hard time. Tan, don't worry k! You've got my support~ :) Thanks for listening that day. Helped a lot! -muaks-

Didn't do much work that day. Slept at 2300 h. Couldn't keep my eyes open! Too puffy and swollen! Heh! Even my maid was laughing at me. She was saying that she has never seen me cry so badly before. Well... She has never seen, not that I haven't cried so badly before :P

Okok, I better go. Continue another time. Gotta bathe. Have tuition later. Better get some Chem done! Need to ask stuff also! :) Take care and see ya all around! Sorry to make you read all my rubbish! :( Still have to tell you what happened on yesterday and today! :P

P/S: Check out my new homepage! Joy made it for me! It's DAMN NICE! So retro! :) click here! It's not finished yet coz I've yet to think of what to put in. There's a blog there but I'll be updating this more than that probably. I want a private one. Doubt I'll update that a lot actually. Maybe paste some of what's here there. Haha. Go take a look! Oh! Joy's page is cool too! :)

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YAY!!! I know the name of the guy at the gym!~ Heh! Remember that time I was talking about the person who asked me weird qns? Yeah, that one. He's called Peiren. :P Sounds so girly :P Why Chinese name?!! He's cheena? Cannot be lah... From his actions and the way he speaks can't tell. Heh! Oh well.. Cheap thrill... Hee! I asked Weizhi [my junior] coz same clique. The prominent year 1 clique lah. Luckily he didn't ask why. Heh! :P

Had training just now. Sucks man. Bowled really badly :( How?! Next Wednesday is the selections!! Shucks! I know I'm confirmed in but the thing is er, I have to be ok at least. At this rate, I'm going to be in the bottom 20 of the list of bowlers during competition man. Just couldn't bowl properly today. Pok also flopped like mad. Even worse than me. I had 96 for 1st game and he got 78! He's normally the 150+ kind. Cheryl bowled really well... Kept picking up her spares. Yay! :) Jasmin was also not bad after her lousy 1st 4 frames. Shen Zhi kept missing pin 5. Don't know why also. She couldn't find her strike line I think. As for Sean, not bad also :) Peifen... Hmm... I really don't know. Her ball doesn't seem to be hooking at all. Looks like straight ball. Hope she improves. Her score was higher than mine but it's really unstable lah. Oh well... Didn't really see the rest. Dawn, Jean and WC didn't come today. Dawn claims that her arm is aching... Hmm... I doubt it... She's been missing trainings so much that even Mervyn wants me to tell her to call him. Whoops. Jean got into trouble with her mum so she couldn't come. Had to study for Bio. I msged WC at 1430 h and he only replied at 1600 h saying that he only just woke up and that he didn't know training was for year 2s also. Stupid guy. Forever ponning training also. :P

Going to meet the rest at Cine soon for Spider-man! It's Spider-man and not Spiderman or Spider man. Heh! Just read 8 Days lah. Tobey MacGuire is so cute and Kirsten Dunst is so pretty! :) Go d/l Kirsten Dunst's songs! Nice!

Okok, gotta dry my hair then zhao. See ya around.. Tata! -muaks-

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Ha! I so totally agree...

Nice nwe picture up there right? That's my opening graphic for my new page! :) Nice right? I love the sunflowers and the whitedot word. Basically the whole thing lah! Heh! Found the pic then just added the word. Can't really see but you'll get to see the bigger version when my page is done.

Gonna watch S P I D E R M A N tmr!!!!! YIPEE~ :) So exciting! I know the hockey girls went today. Took bus down to town with them today. Still thkning if I should go with Dan and the rest to the airport to chit chat. It's quite far and it'll be quite late by the time I get back. My mum lah... Besides, I'll be in church quite long on Sunday. Got Chem test coming and tutorials are coming in like mad!! Just got a new Math and Chem tutorial. Can take more than an hour just to do ONE pathetic tutorial. Sucks man. I'll think about it. Have training in the afternoon too. Might be tired. Don't know. See how lah.

Had an ok day in school. Nothing much happened. Skipped Physics lect AGAIN. :P Haiyah, don't miss much anyway. Probably won't listen even if I were to go in :P Giri[Daryl's good friend] is damn funny! He also always pon lect. Councillor ok! Naughty naughty! Heh! Then he saw me in the library too then gave me that "hmm... What're you doing here?" kind of expression. Being the blur me [er, shuddup! Only I can say that! :P], I didn't get what he was trying to say so he walked up to my table and said,"Aren't you supposed to be at the lecture?" I replied,"Are you also supposed to be there?" -grins- Then he laughed and said,"That's why I know you are supposed to be at lect too!" Haha! Mad already. Always see him during my free periods. Actually, I see him everywhere. Somehow my breaks clash with 01S43 also. Nice chap. At least better than the rest of the bastards from VS :P Ok, Daryl and my dad are nice people also. Other than these 3, I don't see anymore nice VS guys around. Haha! As in really gentlemanly, nice, sweet, etc kind of people. The rest disappointed me. Thought Tengren is a nice person too but in the end, it turns out that he's not that guai after all. Remember I said Nik told me a lot of stuff about him? Yeah, that's why. As for Leon, he's ok lah. Nice but yet, I don't know. Nik also sayd that she knows that Leon would've copied the Math test too. Disappointing lah. Oh well, doesn't concern me that much. :)

Okies, I better go noe. Gotta research on cram schools. GP stuff. Take care yeah?

P/S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHRIS!! May, Diwei's birthday!!! :)

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You know what? I've been wasting my time ever since I wrote in the last entry... Want to know what I was doing? Repainting my hp cover! Woohoo... Lalala... Stupid Jas! -whacks herself with her notes- DO YOUR WORK! :( Haven't even done Chem tutorial which Ms Lee will be going through tmr!! Die! Now you know HOW I waste my time! -bleah- Okok, going to read my notes at least then go Zzz if not I'll be a zombie tmr -yawnz- :P I'll do the tutorial during my free period. Sux. Supposed to use the free period as my reading period coz I know when I come home, I don't read! :( Still stuck with my Following the Wrong God Home by Catherine Lim!! Been reading it for the last 3 months plus!! Damn loser -stares at those who are about to call me brinjal- Zek, I bet you've finished your A Painted House by John Grisham~! I'm soo slow man. Or rather I don't even pick up the book! There are so many other books I want to read. Just found another 3 books but I haven't even finished this! Shucks! I better read it on the way home tmr or smth. Heh. -runs to her table, finds the book and chucks it into her bag- Okies, it's IN! I WILL FINISH IT IN A WEEK! I DON'T CARE! :P

Think I'm weird. Heh. Coz when I concentrate, I really concentrate on my work but it's really super seldom!! Yesterday I managed to sit at my table without moving away from it, doing Chem for about 2-3 hrs! But today, -sigh- disappointing! :(
On a lighter note, I just remembered what 2 people said to me a few days ago. Uncle TC [My godbro's dad... Not my godfather though. My godbro is my parents' godson. Heh! Confusing.] said on Sat that I look prettier everytime he sees me! Yay! This is the second time he said it! :P It's really uncommon for him to praise me. Used to think he had smth against me coz of the way he looked and spoke to me :( And on Tue, during PE break, I was walking to and fro at the canteen coz I really didn't know what to eat [Hmm... What's new? VJ's food sucks! :P]... Walked pass Qingxi who was at the western food stall. He told me to go over to him then he said I'm very beautiful! WAhahha! I was sooo amused. Rather taken aback by what he said. Heh. I mean, he just said that out of the blue. Err... No, he doesn't like me. Pls. He has a gf. She's in Aussie but that's not the point. The point is I got complimented!! Heh! I just said,"Xiao!" then ran back to Peanut at the Malay stall. Ha! Natural reaction what. Then we all went back to the table and he said he meant what he said. I just laughed it off. Ha! Ok, haolian but it's an ego boost ok. I know it's not true but builds up confidence! Haha! -hinthint- Kidding! Oh yeah, with reference to what May commented about the gym thing, er, pls man. He's a JC 1 who is damn cute! If what you say is true, he's probably pajiao :P Haiyah... Can't be bothered lah... -grins-

Okies, better go. Take care! Nites! Gonna log off now so that I can concentrate on my Chem. See ya!

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Waah... This is SOOO ME!! The words in bold and italics at the same time are what I think describes me best. So many!! Wah... Unbelievable!! [or is it unbelieveable? Heh. The latter right? Forgot lah!] Before you read on, download the song I'm listening to now! NICE!! :)


Red: 4/100 Blue: 20/100 White: 13/100 Yellow: 8/100
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So I'm a blue, white, yellow then red. :)

BLUES:
The do-gooders

"Life cannot bestow on anyone
a more gratifying reward
than the sincere appreciation
and trust of a Blue friend."

Blues Are Motivated by Altruism
Blues love to do nice things for others. [well... sometimes lah.] They look for opportunities to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. Selflessness rather than selfishness is their guiding philosophy. Many Blues are uncomfortable doing things solely for themselves. They hold doors open for people, offer rides when someone's car breaks down, contribute to charities, even devote their entire lives to helping others.

Blues Seek Intimacy
More than anything else, Blues want to love and be loved. A true Blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Once considered solely a female characteristic, this nurturing is more accurately understood as a Blue personality trait.

Blues Crave Being Understood
Blues are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. They are notorious for revealing their inadequacies, because they value being known and understood so much. In the eyes of a Blue, being vulnerable is a small price to pay for the chance to connect emotionally. Blues may have their hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love.

Blues Need to Be Remembered and Appreciated
With Blues, a simple pat on the back will not suffice. Blues expend such great effort in making the world a better place that sometimes they need to be told how wonderful they are. They need to be thanked and specifically remembered for their good deeds. They need sincere gratitude. They delight in being remembered on birthdays and other special days, especially if the remembrance is personal--a homemade anniversary card, a welcome home party, a special day that isn't on the calendar. Blues need tender loving care.

Blues Are Directed by a Strong Moral Conscience
Blues are motivated to behave in a proper, appropriate manner. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgments, even their leisure time. Blues enjoy being "good." Of all the personality colors, Blues come equipped with the strongest sense of integrity. A Blue would rather lose than cheat. Blues are trustworthy. Ethically, Blues are the people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.

Blues are the most controlling personality.
They are fiercely connected to the lives they live and often appear to be emotionally unstoppable, as though on a mission from God.

Blue Strengths
AS AN INDIVIDUAL
1.Sees life as a serious endeavor.
2. Appreciates beauty and detail.
3. Has a strong aesthetic sense.
4. Stable and dependable (plowhorse versus racehorse.)
5. Sincere and emotionally deep
6. Analytically oriented (concerned with why one behaves as he/she does.)
7. High achiever [YEAH RIGHT!!]
8. Deep sense of purpose.

AS A COMMUNICATOR
1. Able to enjoy sensitive and deep conversation.
2. Strong skills in empathizing with others
3. Remembers feelings and thoughts shared in conversation.
4. Willing to give conversations time to run their course.
5. Prefers small groups

AS A GOAL SETTER
1. Highly disciplined. [NO! TOTALLY NOT!]
2. Receptive to other suggestions.
3. Strong goal orientation.
4. Plans well and follows through superbly.

AS A CAREER PERSON
1. Excellent behind-the-scenes worker.
2. Respectful of employer because of employer's position.
3. Enjoys detail and schedules.
4. Receptive of creating thinking in others.
5. Gives more of self than required or expected.

AS A PARENT
1. Encourages academics and/or trade development in children.
2. Excellent trainer of skills (e.g., manners, study habits.) [think I will be. Keep telling the girls in my class to sit properly!! Haha!]
3. Very observant
4. Empathic & sensitive
5. Sincerely loyal to children
6. Excellent in long-term commitments
7. Keeps home clean & cozy
8. Sincerely seeks to understand children's behavior. [yup, I always wonder why do people do stuff that they do]
9. Self-sacrificing [for the ones I love, definitely]

AS A CHILD
1. Proper & behaved [errrr... NO! My sis is better than me I think.]
2. Easily disciplined verbally.
3. Concerned about being a good family member.
4. Sensitive & concerned about other family members.
5. Loyal to parents and siblings regardless of quality of relationship.
6. Seeks learning opportunities.

AS A FRIEND
1. Loyal forever once friendship is established.
2. Genuine concern for other person's well-being.
3. Remembers special holidays and promotes celebrations.
4. Encouraging in times of trouble.
5. Willing to commit time to the relationship.

AS A COMMITTED COMPANION
1. Gives the relationship priority over other activities.
2. Values intimacy and places high priority on it. [quite lah]
3. Considers spouse first in decision making.
4. Responsible for making ongoing contribution to relationship.
5. Enjoys sharing intimacy and places high priority on it. [?? Same as pt 2 right? Duh?]

Blue Limitations
AS AN INDIVIDUAL
1. Highly emotional.
2. Smug & self-righteous.
3. Controlling and/or envious of others' success when too easily obtained. [sad to say this is rather true]
4. Strong perfecting and performance orientation. [I'm a perfectionist when it comes to other stuff, not studying :P]
5. Verbally self-abusive. [erm, heh. Whoops! ;P]

AS A COMMUNICATOR
1. Has intensely held opinions on many issues.
2. Tends to lecture and overdiscuss issues.
3. Rigid with principles and unwilling to negotiate.
4. Fears risking self in conversation.
5. Argues primarily from emotional perspective.
6. Strong expectations for others to be sensitive & deep.
7. Expects others to read his or her mind & know his or her feelings. [Ha! This is good man! SO true!! But this is a bad pt, why am I so happy? Haha!]

AS A GOAL SETTER
1. Sets unrealistically high goals.
2. Easily discouraged when unsuccessful in accomplishments.
3. Easily frustrated by lack of team cooperation.[Yes! Kept scolding my class when they were super uncooperative!]
4. Expects others to understand his or her goals and make them a priority.

AS A CAREER PERSON
1. Feels others are not capable of doing things as well as he or she.
2. Craves security in career.
3. Feels inadequate with natural talents and creativity.[I have talent? I don't see any :(]
4. Shies away from public exposure and performance.[Yeah, sort of. Low confidence lah]
5. Establishes high and often unrealistic expectations for self and others.
6. Tends to overplan and overprepare.
7. Critical of others' work and of self.
8. Overextends self.

AS A PARENT
1. Blames children for being unappreciative of parenting efforts.
2. Can be moody and unpredictable.
3. Easily irritated by mistakes and shortcomings of others.
4. Usually loves with strings attached.
5. Tends to give heavy doses of guilt to children.
6. Lacks ability to relax.
7. Requires a purpose in order to play.
8. Controlling and overprotective of children.
9. Too precise and exact with expectations.
10. Feels a clean home is a high priority.
11. Accepts guilt feelings too easily and readily.
12. Not spontaneous with activities.
13. Frustrates children with unrealistic expectations.
14. Strong sense of right and wrong--badgers children if convinced they may be wrong.

AS A CHILD
1. Easily frustrated.
2. Feels guilty over minor concerns.
3. Moody and emotional (cries instead of facing issues rationally).
4. Feelings are easily hurt. [SUPER TRUE!!!]
5. Martyr-like and complains about life.
6. Self-esteem is dependent on outside influences.
7. Has difficulty relaxing and often feels uncomfortable.
8. Withholds affection if angered (pouts).
9. Waits for parent to initiate ideas an then criticizes unacceptable suggestions.

AS A FRIEND
1. Highly insecure about other's acceptance and approval.
2. Feels rejected easily.
3. When depressed or depressive, feels it is friend's job to understand.
4. Can be revengeful and bitter if crossed or scarred emotionally.
5. Critical of friends' principles or activities if not similar.
6. Expects friends to maintain strong loyalty.
7. Wishes friends would communicate more often.
8. Rarely playful and spontaneous.

AS A COMMITTED COMPANION
1. Blames others for his or her unhappiness (if only you were more...").
2. Demands affection and intimacy.
3. Demands time and attention of partner.
4. Highly manipulative in seeking support or understanding.
5. Suspicious of others' motives (distrustful).
6. Unforgiving of past misunderstandings and wrongdoings.
7. Clings to companion too much.
8. Withholds feelings when frightened he or she may be rejected.

CAREERS MOST LIKELY TO ATTRACT BLUES
Teacher, Banker, Nurse, Homemaker, Clergy/Minister, Engineer, Psychotherapist, Accountant, Librarian, Computer Programmer, Politician, Journalist, Musician, Architect[WOOHOO!!!!! :)], Carpenter.

PERSONALITIES WHO APPEAR TO BE BLUES
1. ABRAHAM LINCOLN: Renowned for his trademark of fairness, he always sought the most noble path that would benefit all parties, if possible. He sought truth as a guiding principle in his personal and professional relationships.

2. PRINCESS DIANA: Always dresses appropriately, she carried herself with dignity and class. Emotions ruled her life, and she rendered herself vulnerable to the general public, continually gaining sympathy and support for herself and her causes.

3. WALT DISNEY: A creative genius, he loved the process more than the bottom line and relished design and details.

BLUE NATIONS [?!?]
1. United States
2. England
3. Denmark

How to Develop a Positive Connection with Blues
Do:
1. Emphasize their security in the relationship.
2. Be sensitive and soft-spoken [??] in your approach.
3. Be sincere and genuine.
4. Behave appropriately and well mannered. [ahh... Not necessarily]
5. Limit their risk level.
6. Promote their creativity.
7. Appreciate them.
8. Allow ample time for them to gather their thoughts before expressing themselves.
9. Be loyal.
10. Do thorough analysis before making presentations.

Don't:
1. Make them feel guilty.
2. Be rude or abrupt.
3. Promote too much change.
4. Expect spontaneity.
5. Abandon them.
6. Expect them to bounce back easily or quickly from depression.
7. Demand perfection (they already expect too much from themselves.)
8. Push them too quickly into making decisions.
9. Expect them to forgive quickly when crossed. [no leh... I forgive quite easily most of the time. Depends lah]
10. Demand immediate action or quick verbal bantering.

Recommended Time-Management Tips for Blues
1. Thinks rationally rather than reactively when pressured. Emotionalism can create chaos and unnecessary distress.
2. Clearly state your limits when others impose deadlines on you.
3. Settle for less. Perfectionism often narrows your focus, causing you to ignore other important aspects of your life.
4. Don't set unrealistic expectations for yourself or others to the extent that everyone feels overwhelmed. Simply see goals as road markers rather than criteria for success.
5. Don't personalize your interactions with other people. Blues often suffer from feeling let down by others or from quitting because they let others down. Concentrate on the task at hand rather than becoming emotionally discouraged or critical.
6. See time management as a compromise rather than "all or nothing." If you fail to meet a deadline, learn to punt. It will free you to be more creative and less self-critical.
7. Realize that there are limits to what you can control. You cannot control other people.
8. Set a ten-minute time limit to worry about any topic in the day. When your time is up, so is your worrying. Get on with living in the present moment and doing what you can do rather than focusing on what is our of your control.

"If you love someone, set them free.
If they come back, they're yours;
if not, hunt them down and kill them!"

"If we say we have no sin, we are fooling ourselves, and the truth is not in us." - 1 John 1:8